Answered Prayer

Diligently seeking the Lord on how to continue to pray for America: a time of rest to better hear Him

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Diligently seeking the Lord on how to continue to pray for America, justice and vindication for President Trump whom I 100% believe WON the election and WAS reelected by WE THE PEOPLE, but ya know, election heist. Also on how to pray for this evil one and the puppet masters behind him writing these nauseating, oppressive orders.

Had I not heard the Lord for myself and instead wrongly listened to the terrible counsel of man, elders in the church, I could have been dead by now and/or my son kidnapped.

But glory to God, I was led by the Holy Spirit and not the carnal minds of men, and He delivered us from those who were too strong for us and brought every single promise He gave me about deliverance from a terrifying situation to pass.

Seriously, we MUST be led by the Holy Spirit for OURSELVES in all we do.

Yes, we can ask for counsel, but ultimately, we must each diligently seek the Lord to confirm it. We don’t blindly follow the counsel of man. We test it with the Lord.

God is faithful and promises to give wisdom liberally to those who ask Him BUT we must believe. “If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all liberally and without reproach, and it will be given to him. But let him ask in faith, with no doubting, for he who doubts is like a wave of the sea driven and tossed by the wind. For let not that man suppose that he will receive anything from the Lord; he is a double-minded man, unstable in all his ways,” (James 1:5-8).

The Lord knows I am a relentless, fireball, and sometimes stubborn child of His, and He must tap me, probably harder than most, about times of rest and rest for the purposes of getting quiet, so I may hear from Him.

But His taps are loving, gentle ones, of course, and I love Him, so I want to obey. Taking a much needed few days or so off from blogging and social media. God bless you and yours exceedingly above all you can ask or think.

Answered Prayer, Faith, Testimony

When God is answering your prayers but things look dead (maybe even frightening): The State of America and a powerful, personal testimony

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I just read this excellent, Spirit-led post, “If We Believe, We will See the Glory of God.”

It reminded me of times when I cried out to God in faith, looking to Him and what His Word had to say about my circumstances, and standing on those promises. I prayed, prayed, and prayed.

And often, things got worse, sometimes even frightening BEFORE His answers came.

In other words, they became “impossible without God” situations.

Here’s an excerpt of the beginning of the above mentioned post, so you can get a taste of why it inspired me:

“Like most of you, I’m trying to process all that has transpired in our nation. Things certainly haven’t gone the way most of us thought or prayed has it?

My husband, Kevin said to me recently, “I think we have gotten a glimpse of what the disciples must have felt after Jesus was crucified. They were so certain it was going to go a different direction.” You can read the rest of it here. Worth the read.

Her post reminded me of a POWERFUL testimony of God’s deliverance in my life based on His promises…

Many years ago, I cried out to God for my son and I to be delivered from my ex-husband because he was a great danger to us. Before I left him he said, “I’m going to kill you and hide you’re body where no one will ever find you.”

So, I don’t want any “dads have rights too” comments from anyone. N/A.

I became a Spirit-filled, tongue praying, on fire for Jesus believer a few months AFTER I left him in 2001 with my then baby. The Holy Spirit led me every step of the way on how to pray. He led me to pray from the stance that my son and I were in danger, that his intentions towards us were evil, and to cry out for our deliverance.

I didn’t want us to end up like the many women and children we’ve seen murdered by the men who were supposed to be their protectors.

For a season, the restraining order I filed got renewed. Once because he admitted to threatening to kill me before the judge which I believe happened because I had prayed and fasted for many days before that court date. During that time, he also refused to participate in his supervised visitations.

One day, out of the blue, in late 2003, he became “interested” in seeing his son again. Long story short, he worked with an attorney to get the court to allow him to hire his own psychiatrist, a lying chump, to supervise his visits with my son.

I continued praying and fasting off and on for our protection, crying out to God to deliver us and keep us safe, especially my son.

Things got dark. Really dark, even frightening.

This psychiatrist painted me as a mother trying to keep a father’s son away from him. But the truth was I knew the truth about him, what he was capable of, how the Lord was telling me to pray, and had more than a valid reason to be as frightened as I was.

Because of that horrible psychiatrist, I ended up looking like the “bad buy,” to the judge. The crazy one. Instead of the abuser who wanted to “make me disappear.”

You see. The abuse had only been my word against his. I had no proof. But was able to get a restraining order based on a judge taking the cautious route when I said we were in great danger and that my ex’s green card was about to expire, and he was a flight risk for kidnapping.

Enter the dark, dark time…

In November of 2003, the judge ordered unsupervised visitations with a man whose green card had been expired for two years and was illegally in the country. Though I begged, the court didn’t require him to prove it. It made no sense! It was insane to me. I couldn’t believe it was happening to us. I was terrified for my son, 2.5 years old by then. I thought I’d die.

I didn’t know it at the time, but my ex husband had gotten a new girlfriend, my ex-neighbor’s wife. Rewinding a bit, I believe God used that relationship to keep my ex more focused on her than my son and me during the time he refused to do the supervised visitations from 2001 to 2003.

So from November 2003 to the summer of 2005, my son had unsupervised visitations with my ex. You have no idea what a prayer warrior, hold onto the promises of God like a pit pull this made me. No idea. There’s nothin’ like a mama praying for her child.

I REFUSED to give up on the promises of God for me and my son. REFUSED. I continued to cry out to God as He led, prayed the Word, prayed with other Holy Ghost filled, warrior women.

The Holy Spirit led me to Psalms like 37 and 18, and I knew by the Spirit, He wanted me to pray them. You know how the Spirit strongly highlights verse to us. Especially verses like:

“For yet a little while and the wicked shall be no more;
Indeed, you will look carefully for his place,
But it shall be no more,” (Psalm 37:4).

“Wait on the Lord,
And keep His way,
And He shall exalt you to inherit the land;
When the wicked are cut off, you shall see it,” (Psalm 37:34).

“You have delivered me from the violent man,” (Psalm 18:48).

I’d read those verses and asked, “Lord, what does a little while mean? I don’t think I like Your version of little while, Lord. Have mercy, Lord. Help us, Lord. Deliver us. Keep my baby safe.” I declared those verses – His weapons of truth that destroy the works of the devil – over my situation countless times.

Late 2004/early 2005, my ex began to miss his weekly visits here and there citing work. I don’t think it was work but the woman he stole from our poor neighbor. I praised God every time he called to say he couldn’t pick him up, knowing my son would be safe at home with me, but not that he wrecked a home. God uses what is meant for evil for our good.

I haven’t written or spoken about this in some time, and it’s so difficult. I am sharing this because His Word is TRUE. He cannot lie. We can stand on His promises and see them come to pass EVEN when the situation looks dead, dark, and destined for nothing but destruction.

Kind of like America right now. Which I don’t at all believe the Lord is done with using for His glory.

SUDDENLY, in July 2005, I receive a call from my ex’s aunt, “He’s in jail without bond.” Though, I’d prayed for our deliverance thousands of times, I was honestly shocked when it happened. I didn’t ask or tell God how to deliver us but simply to please do so.

A week or two before his arrest in 2005 was the last time both my son and I ever saw him again. He spent the first year in jail before he was sentenced to prison for possession of cocaine, armed kidnapping, and armed false imprisonment. My ex-neighbor’s wife was also involved with the crime but only got probation.

I requested the thick stack of police reports and read them. What he did and how he terrified those people was heartbreaking. I didn’t know he had gotten on drugs while with his girlfriend who also had a drug problem which meant that my son was more than likely visiting a home where there were drugs, maybe even drug use.

Are these things unforgivable in the eyes of God? Of course not. But He alone sees the heart, it intentions, and whether it is willing to turn to Him through His Son Jesus Christ.

When my ex was transferred from jail to prison, I found the strength to look him up online. I wept and wept for him seeing the photo of him in that infamous orange garb. But at the same time, I wept and raised holy hands unto the Lord and rejoiced NOT in my ex’s suffering but in Him for His divine hand of protection and our mighty deliverance.

My ex served three years, and in 2008, was picked up by immigration directly from prison and permanently deported from the U.S.

Who says God doesn’t answer the prayers and cries of His people? It just most often doesn’t look like He’s answering them UNTIL He does and often much better than we asked for. I know this oh so well and in more cases than this one.

God is so good! A few months before my ex’s sentence was over, the Lord was so mindful of me to encourage me because I REALLY needed it.

“Was immigration going to do their job and remove him for his federal felonies or set him free in America again to do more damage?” I’d cry to Him and wonder.

“Comfort me, Lord. Speak to me,” I’d say. And that He did. He led me to these verses and strongly highlighted them as for me:

“The Egyptians whom you see today, you shall see again no more forever,” (Ex 14:13).

“All your children will be taught by the Lord,
and great will be their peace.
In righteousness you will be established:
Tyranny will be far from you;
you will have nothing to fear.
Terror will be far removed;
it will not come near you,” (Isaiah 54:13-14).

God’s name is truly Faithful and True. He gave me those solid Rock verses to stand on for the last leg of that horrible trial, and I did. Though, I was often frightened as his release day approached, I kept reading and declaring those verses again and again.

My ex sealed his own destruction just as the Word teaches us, his true nature was no longer hidden, but exposed for all to see. Again, just as the Word promises when He brings about justice.

The Lord vindicated me and brought justice for me and my son as well as those my ex victimized through those crimes. During my time of waiting for our deliverance, who knows how many chances the Lord gave him to turn from his wicked ways? We must choose Christ. He doesn’t force us.

I knew he was an extremely dangerous person to have in our lives, the Lord confirming it over and over in how His Spirit led me to pray. This is why it is so important to be led by the Spirit, not by what is seen. We need supernatural discernment and wisdom for the evil times we live in.

God not only answered, He answered exceedingly ABOVE all I could ask or think and in a way that touched my heart so deeply when He showed me this…

The Lord delivered me and my son in a way that kept my hands ENTIRELY CLEAN in the matter. Yes, for my sake, but even more so for my son’s, so no one could ever come back and blame me for him not having his father around.

It wasn’t the direct case I had had in the past or my direct claims about his abuse that got him hedged out of our lives, but God used another case against him and the law to do so. Thus, I am forever guiltless in the matter because what happened and his true self became undeniable, and NO ONE could open their mouths against me about it again. Hallelujah! What the Word means by when He “breaks the teeth of the wicked.”

It also came to me some time later, that his attorney, the chump psychiatrist my ex paid to make him look good, and even my own attorney later on in my case, didn’t take me seriously regarding my major concerns about my ex potentially kidnapping my son and removing him from the U.S.

They were more influenced by that psychiatrist who lied about me merely because of his title. Even to the level of mocking me. That one of my ex’s convictions was kidnapping. ONLY GOD! He justified and vindicated me in every way they mocked me and tried to paint me as the liar and unjust one.

When my son turned 13, I finally told him the full truth as to why his father went to prison, etc., and I praise God, I was able to say it had nothing to do with me keeping him from his father, but that it was something my ex did that got himself removed from his life. It was all truly a great miracle and deliverance by the Lord in the mysterious ways He works.

I pray this blessed you and encouraged your faith in Him and His promises for America’s sake and for President Trump and the vindication and justice he needs from a Father who longs to give it to him. Let us pray and believe, so we will see the glory of the Lord!

Answered Prayer, Faith, Grace

Need a prayer answered? Simply look at Jesus. Only Jesus.

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In recent months, the Lord has answered some of my prayers in amazing ways – and as He promises – exceedingly above what I asked for. I wrote about one of those answers here.

As a covenant child of God, if I merely glanced at myself as I prayed, my faith and any expectations of answered prayer would wither and die as I’m all too familiar with my imperfections and the shortcomings I have yet to conquer with His help.

Literally, the entire 19 years of my walk with the Lord, I can relate to the apostle Paul’s words in Romans 7:18-22 (TPT), “For I know that nothing good lives within the flesh of my fallen humanity. The longings to do what is right are within me, but will-power is not enough to accomplish it. My lofty desires to do what is good are dashed when I do the things I want to avoid. So if my behavior contradicts my desires to do good, I must conclude that it’s not my true identity doing it, but the unwelcome intruder of sin hindering me from being who I really am. Through my experience of this principle, I discover that even when I want to do good, evil is ready to sabotage me. Truly, deep within my true identity, I love to do what pleases God.”

But through my confession of faith in Lord Jesus Christ, my true identity is daughter of the King. I am clothed in the royal garments Christ, washed squeaky clean from every sin – past, present, future, in covenant with God the Father, forever sealed in the blood of His Son.

Like Paul, truly, the desires of my heart are to ALWAYS do what pleases the God I love oh so much, but that unwelcome intruder of sin hinders me from being who I really am.

In the words of the apostle Paul once again, Romans 7:24-25 (TPT), “What an agonizing situation I am in! So who has the power to rescue this miserable man from the unwelcome intruder of sin and death? I give all my thanks to God, for his mighty power has finally provided a way out through our Lord Jesus, the Anointed One!”

Gllllooorrrrrrrryyyyyyyy! Praise You, my Lord Jesus Christ! You’ve provided the way out, and I chose Your way! Thank You, Lord! I love You so much.

Beloved, if you’re truly a child of God who has confessed Christ and need the Lord’s help today or are standing on a promise of God, you can approach God with absolute boldness with Jesus Christ, the perfect One, standing in the gap as your personal Mediator.

Don’t even peak at yourself, not even a glance, if you need answers to prayers. Nor entertain thoughts from the enemy that try to get you to question your fully righteous standing IN Christ, saying, “You did this, that, and the other. God can’t answer the prayers of someone like you.”

Lies! That’s why that snake is called the accuser. Refuse those lies. Take them captive. Cast them down and out of your thoughts and declare who you actually are in Christ.

Guard your heart from the religious teachings that have infiltrated the church that are of the enemy that attempt to get God’s own children to compare themselves to others’ standards or what THEY think it means to be a good Christian through their man-made measuring sticks of righteousness.

“For we dare not class ourselves or compare ourselves with those who commend themselves. But they, measuring themselves by themselves, and comparing themselves among themselves, are not wise,” (2 Corinthians 10:12).

This is exactly what the enemy uses, even through those in church leadership, to do. For example: “Oh, you’re a divorced. Well, you did what God hates, no wonder You’re having a hard time.” As if divorce is an unpardonable sin more powerful than the blood of Jesus Christ! That talk of theirs is devil talk. Not the language of the Father who sees you as perfect IN His Son, Jesus Christ.

Yes, there can be terrible earthly consequences to sin that we have to walk out, but I tell you, I was divorced because of abuse, and I have had a countless number of prayers answered because I simply looked at Jesus, took Him for His Word, and He’s never failed me. Not once.

P.S. No, this is not a license to sin. Let’s be clear. God hates sin and the destruction and death it brings to the lives of His children who choose it. The last thing our good Father desires for one of His own is for us to give place to the devil in our lives. But this is a world filled with the fallible men expressing the free will God gave them. As as we see, sin and its affects abounds.

Our Father is in the redeeming business. Dear Lord that the world would only turn to You and stop loving their wickedness more. Your ways are far better than anything the world has to offer.

I love the many ex-con testimonies I’ve heard where truly the Lord raised these beautiful men and women from the pit to the palace.

When we love God and are in awe of His grace, the last thing we want to do is sin, but if we do, we merely need to cry out to Him in our forever forgiven state for help to turn from that thing that has a hold of us, and He’s right there, ready to lift us out of the mess we got ourselves into. This I know oh so well.